Church Foreshadowing...

Last night as I prayed in bed, I remembered something that I thought was interesting.  God speaks to us in many ways and sometimes it is in hindsight that we notice.  The Sunday before Emma Grace was born, Doug and I attended a church service with some friends.  In that service the pastor asked in his sermon, "If God called on you today, would you do anything he asked of you?".  Of course Doug and I shook our heads YES in agreement.  From what I can remember the entire congregation did.  Little did I know, that God was calling on us alright and in less than 72 hours our calling would be known.  I don't know if I had known then what I know now that I would have shook my head yes with no reluctance.  It is easy to say that you will do whatever God wants when you think it is going to be the way YOU think it should be.  Let's just say, it is easy to be "okay" with God's will when it fits into your expectations.  I knew I was going to be giving birth to a beautiful baby girl in the coming days and I knew that was a part of "The Plan".  What I didn't know, was "The Plan" was going to look much different than I ever could have imagined.  When I laid eyes on my baby girl for the first time, I knew something wasn't quite the way I thought it should be.  In my head I was thinking "I should be feeling utter happiness right in this moment".  In my heart I knew she had Down Syndrome and I began to panic.  A feeling of complete terror came over me as I looked at her and then looked at my husband.  If it wasn't Down's what was it?  Something wasn't right...or was it?  I hope I can tell the beautiful story of Emma Grace and how she came to us. I will need to start from the beginning but that will have to wait until tomorrow...